Need to write

I don't know if it's all that helpful for me to write things here, maybe it makes me feel better...maybe it reinforces bad feelings, but as an optimist I must believe this is at least a little cathartic (and seeing how most of catharsis is in your head anyway, I think I'm right). Anyway, after seeing that last post down there I'm realizing I've had a lot happen in the last 9 months, the great majority of it amazing. As my last post might indicate, I'm referring to anything and everything involving the love of my life, Rachael Hulvey. Not only is she a perfect match for me, she's the first person I've ever met who's actually felt the same about me. She inspires me to greatness, and I know that the future's great. I'm happy :D
Old habits are hard to break though, and with the combined stressors of college, money, and friends who are complete bastards (That one's a joke. But seriously....fuck those guys lol) have me losing sleep and second-guessing myself again. I'm really trying to keep it under control, and it is considerably less powerful than any other time, but I find it taking me over from time to time. Rachael's great about even that though and I couldn't ask for anyone better.
College is fine, not as important s the above content of course, but fine nonetheless. I'm a psychology major now, I realized my true calling (kind of) last semester, though I'm now considering adding an Anthropology major to it as well to keep my options open and to keep me busy.
So ultimately I have the biggest problem solved with Rachael. I've found someone to spend my life with, so not only do I not have that to bother me anymore, I have someone to support me with any future problems. I couldn't possibly be any happier about that (and yet I know I will be :D ). Money, school, all that noise is still blasting at me, but I got this. I got this.
OH WAIT, I was so entranced talking about Rachael I forgot to mention....WE'RE ENGAGED! :D
haha, that's a good thought.
Anyhow, I got stuff to do...not really it's like 2am and I'm hungry...so BYE!!

This could be a long one....

Thats what she said btw...Anyway, been an extremely long and extremely interesting time since I last posted anything here. Obviously a lot has happened and I write all this (strangely inspired at 2:30am) with a great deal of excitement coursing through me. Alright, events in chronological order since last post (I'm assuming I remember what I put in the last post, and am gonna start from somewhere I think I haven't written down yet.) Alright, I'll start with my trip to Florida and go from there. My friend Chris, now attending Full Sail University, was headed off to college and another friend, Charles, and I accompanied him and his parents on the trip. A week of new apartment hijinks ensued and I may have broken down at the loss of a great friend. Sad really...(You'll see later in this post why karma seems to be on my side in this one). Anyway, shortly after returning to Virginia, Laura returned from her trip to France, and within days we'd broken up (again, sad story, but just wait, it gets better). My apparent new best friend, Ian, invited me over in my time of grief, and whilst temporarily living in his basement, his mom offered me a house-sitting job (Which im currently doing). I accepted (obviously) and proceeded through the month mundanely, excluding my trip to VCU orientation, awaiting something, anything, to break the repetition. I looked forward to college as a means of escaping the recent trials I'd endured (as most my age would). Then, while preparing for my long week of house-sitting and dog-watching, Ian, Dixon (Ian's brother), and I were all together in the basement when Ian left his computer unattended and his Facebook chat negligently open. Being the mischievous, yet devilishly charming, man that I am, I took it upon my self to ask casually the stranger on the other side of the interweb (as Ian still mind you), "Wanna fuck?" After discovering that I was not actually Ian, my new friend, Rachael, and I had an hour long conversation consisting of stalker-esque banter and inappropriately timed winks. This dialogue was concluded with a convincing argument from myself (with a small amount of persuasion from Dixon) that led to Rachael coming to visit the Cashwells' house, simply to meet this mysterious, oddly creepy, but strangely enthralling stranger (Me). The experience that followed was a bit awkward, as my online persona is a slight deviation from my actual personality, and breaking the ice in the physical world actually requires a but more courage and natural confidence (Luckily those traits are easy to build over a relatively small amount of time). Following this awkward meeting of two perfect strangers, Rachael and I had the pleasure of getting to know each other through the comfort of the internet over the next few days (While still on the job, with Ian and Dixon no longer helping, being safely away in North Carolina). When I felt a certain level of comfort had been reached between the two of us, I invited Rachael out in an attempt to see if anything more could be made of this newfound friendship. To my pleasant surprise, Rachael and I fit very well together and have now been officially dating for, well, two days (Keep in mind this all happened within the last 6-7 days).
To reflect on all that has happened within the past two months, I've found that the saying that I tend to find overused actually has moments where it applies perfectly, "Everything happens for a reason"
I fear that this single post will take up more than any previous one has, and possibly the entire page, so I'll leave my loyal reader(s) with these words of wisdom, "I don't care how normal you think you are, crazy most certainly is a constant condition"

Prom!

Was badass! haha, I definitely had a lot of fun. One of the best nights ever easily :)
but anyway, it's been 5 months, 5 whole entirely amazing and awesome and fantastic and amazingly awesomtesticle months, since me and Laura got together. I couldn't be happier (I couuuuullllddd, but whatever haha).
I guess thats really all I have to say for now lol, so much for the epic story. Not that there isn't one, I just really don't feel like going into detail ;)
Later for now!

Quick update

Hey, what's up?
Nothin' here, nothin new anyway. I'm worried, I'm not worried, whatever. Ummmm.....Still need a job, still in high school (but not for long), and still goin to VCU in August.
I don't feel like enough new has happened yet for this post to be substantial, maybe I'll have to extend it with another post after prom on Saturday :D
Other than not knowing what the fuck to do half the time, I'm very satisfied with life right now.
Just glad to have people around me, I'll miss some of em next year haha.

Return of the King

Haha, hello all! Interesting couple of months(?) since my last post. A lot's happened, big things too. Hehe big things....Anyway, focus, biggest thing(s), to me anyway, are the developments in my relationship with Laura. Biggest thing was that we broke up....for a week...I'm still kinda confused about what exactly happened, but we're back together now and she seems as happy as she ever was....so thats good :)
2nd biggest thing--college. I'm goin to VCU, and that's for sure, UVa rejected me so VCU is where i'll be for the next 4-8 years. Not bad though, majoring in chemistry, not sure exactly what field I'll go into exactly, or if I'll even stay restricted to chemistry (BioChem maybe?)
What's another big thing?......Oh yeah, got a job, quit that in a week though. Restaurants are not the place for me, wayyyyyy too much time at work. I need time to spend with friends and family (and most importantly Laura >.<). Hopefully the new Best Western opens soon, I'll be sure to apply there, and my experience should be quite persuasive :)
I've established that I have two best friends, Chris and Amanda (Chris=BFF and Amanda=BGF) *BGF-Best Girl Friend* lol
So I'm up from having no best friend :D
School.....not really relevant to anything anymore, not high school anyway, just have to finish out the year and I'm done, so i've really stopped caring (and my grades have shot up because of it, don't ask why, I couldn't tell you)
Haha, that title up there has been EXTREMELY relevant lately and I'm absolutely sure it will continue to be so, as it is Spring Break and who knows what the hell could happen over the next week?
I don't know if I'd have it any other way tho.....
Yeah I would haha
Things could definitely be MORE perfect, but I'm very happy with the level of perfection I have now.
The future will be interesting however, as I'm not sure what it brings....but who does?
Guess we'll see what happens....and we shall deal with it.
Alright...CTFO...
I'm done lol
Till next time, I'm crazy, ya'll fuckers know it XP

HEYY YOOUUU GUUUYYSSS!!!!!

long time no post again. although I would like to reiterate (and declare the topic of this post) I love Laura. Haha, I'm almost in shock as to the amount of my crap she puts up with and still says "i love you" to me. She's so patient with me that it makes me feel bad about feeling bad in the first place. So, in an effort to solve my problems with paranoia and impulsiveness, I've placed a message for myself on my phone so that as soon as I open it it lets me know to "chill the FUCK out"...It's been effective so far as I've been chill all day.
My biggest problem is that my imagination goes wild on me when I have nothing better to do, or when a long period of perfection is broken up by some random occurence. I start to believe that, because things have changed slightly or something isn't perfect, everything's going to follow and lead me on a downward spiral to utter depression. I've learned that, contrary to my past experiences, this isn't always the case.
I'm going to try something radical....not worrying. It's insane, but it's worth a shot ;)
Blogging is a-fucking-mazing by the way...I feel EVEN better right now, which is weird because I didn't really feel bad anymore.
Anyway, maybe some news that's relatively unrelated to Laura lol...
-I'm really close to getting a job, I think. Let's hope so anyway.
-School's become somewhere to go for 6-7 hours a day, I really don't even have to try anymore.
-Hmm....I've spent a lot of time with Chris lately, and, if current plans fall through, will be more this weekend
-WoW character should be up to 50 by the end of the night. again...
-This is probably the longest post I've ever put up
-No plans for tomorrow right now...Laura's got Girl Scouts, ruining that plan :P
-Oh yeah, I got accepted to two colleges, USP and VCU. Still waiting on UVa!
-I think that's all my news......oh wait...My car's a piece of shit lol

Okay, that's enough of the blog for today, who knows when I shall return....

This is all.

I
Love
Laura.