Need to write

I don't know if it's all that helpful for me to write things here, maybe it makes me feel better...maybe it reinforces bad feelings, but as an optimist I must believe this is at least a little cathartic (and seeing how most of catharsis is in your head anyway, I think I'm right). Anyway, after seeing that last post down there I'm realizing I've had a lot happen in the last 9 months, the great majority of it amazing. As my last post might indicate, I'm referring to anything and everything involving the love of my life, Rachael Hulvey. Not only is she a perfect match for me, she's the first person I've ever met who's actually felt the same about me. She inspires me to greatness, and I know that the future's great. I'm happy :D
Old habits are hard to break though, and with the combined stressors of college, money, and friends who are complete bastards (That one's a joke. But seriously....fuck those guys lol) have me losing sleep and second-guessing myself again. I'm really trying to keep it under control, and it is considerably less powerful than any other time, but I find it taking me over from time to time. Rachael's great about even that though and I couldn't ask for anyone better.
College is fine, not as important s the above content of course, but fine nonetheless. I'm a psychology major now, I realized my true calling (kind of) last semester, though I'm now considering adding an Anthropology major to it as well to keep my options open and to keep me busy.
So ultimately I have the biggest problem solved with Rachael. I've found someone to spend my life with, so not only do I not have that to bother me anymore, I have someone to support me with any future problems. I couldn't possibly be any happier about that (and yet I know I will be :D ). Money, school, all that noise is still blasting at me, but I got this. I got this.
OH WAIT, I was so entranced talking about Rachael I forgot to mention....WE'RE ENGAGED! :D
haha, that's a good thought.
Anyhow, I got stuff to do...not really it's like 2am and I'm hungry...so BYE!!